That's where I am.  That's how I feel.  Just far away.  I have this whole life here: friends, tasks to complete, Chris.  And yet, almost every day, I check my email and there it is.  My xanga subscriptions.  And there's Carissa.  This beautiful, intelligent, amazing girl who, though she holds a part of MY heart with her back in Palm Springs, has just lost most of hers.  I just read a strain of trainoffcourse's entries and I couldn't help it.  I started crying.  I don't understand why people who fit as perfectly as two corresponding puzzle pieces would be able to live apart.  Two pieces seperately aren't anything.  I mean, depending on how big the puzzle is.  But if the puzzle is life then that is pretty gosh darn big, so two pieces definately would not be able to exist on their own.  So why would that be the plan.  Somebody just needs to invent teleportation, so that Texas is literally an orb away.
I feel so apart from a big chunk of my heart.  So much of it is back in Palm Springs or Irvine or Long Beach or New York and now I have Chris who is slowly unknowingly demanding so much of it...I feel like I'm going to run out soon and not be able to function if I don't visit the pieces that are so sporadically spread out.  I need summer to be here.
Carissa, I need that add about the cheap llama.  I want to buy it and keep it in my room.  And also, Carissa and Robin, I was reading Carissa's xanga and I was crying profusely because I wasn't able to be there, and all of a sudden on my iTunes so conveniently put on shuffle was Lil' Mama and Avril Lavigne's remix of the girlfriend song and I couldn't help but immediately stop crying, smile, and burst out laughing, which happened to wake my snoring roommate.  I miss you guys.

P.S. I miss everybody else too.  My iTunes simply felt it necessary to only remind me of Carissa and Robin at that point in time.

In light of some of this weeks more recent events, I figured I needed to update and take a stand on some of these issues.

Emmerzon and Chanel broke up if some of you missed that announcement.  This really hits home to me since Emmerzon is the senior and I think he broke up with her, and she is a sophomore, I'm pretty sure.  I just feel so awful about this break up, even though I know none of the details.  I just hope you guys are able to get past this in one way or another.  Though, we all know how long it took me to get over my first love :(

Carissa is dreadfully ill with a kidney infection and I HATE that I was not there to help her out or watch Sex and the City marathons with her while pressing a heating pad on her back.  I miss my friends that I literally love with all of my heart and for them to be in a state of insane chaos literally hurts my soul.

There is finally a new boy.  That's all I'm saying online ;)  You'll all have to wait until I talk to you in person.  But I'm pretty happy.  That's all you need to know.

Carissa, Chelsea, Robin, Jamie, Robinne, and Nicole...I have some pretty important news to tell you.